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"We'll be together when we put that love away." [15 Feb 2010|01:55pm]
Talking Heads - A Clean Break (Let's Work)

Just beginning to take that love away
Just beginning to take that love away
In a minute I'll wash that love away

Even now we remember what we used to say
It takes a minute to wash that love away
Make a clean break: wash that love away

Even now we remember what we used to say
Even now we remember what we used to say
We'll be together if we put that love away

It's a matter of degrees
That's true,that's true
It's taken to extremes
And that's why we work so hard to
Take that love away
Take that love away
Take that love away
Take that love away

It's a matter of degrees
That's true,that's true
Loses its perspective
When it's taken to extremes
And that's why we work so hard to
Take that love away
Take that love away
Take that love away
Take that love away
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"Don't touch me! I'm a real live wire." [20 Jan 2010|03:01pm]
Step 1: Put your music player on shuffle.
Step 2: Post the first line (unless the first line reveals the song title) from the first 50 songs that play, no matter how embarrassing.
Step 3: Strike through the songs when someone guesses both artist and song title correctly.
Step 4: Looking them up on Google or any other search engine is CHEATING!
Step 5: If you like the game, post your own

Of course,I had to skip over instrumental songs,and also "Green Bird" by the Seatbelts because the lyrics are in Kanno Youko's patented nonsense language. I'll even be really nice and type the Japanese lyrics in romaji instead of kanji. This is actually just because my computer can't read Japanese.

1. Te no todokanai sukitooru yami
2. Crestfallen sidekick in an old cafe
3. Burning crosses on a nigger's lawn
4. Rows of houses,all bearing down on me
5. Touku haruka kanata kara
6. When the leaves turn from green to brown and a dozen shades come tumbling down
7. Sou senkyuuhyakuhachijuusannen natsu no asa
8. You fell down,of course
9. Shine,bright morning light
10. Mune wo kirisaite nagareru chi ni sae
11. I see the shapes I remember from maps
12. Are you hungry?
13. In heaven,everything is fine
14. Just as you take my hand
15. Take me down
16. Vor der Kaserne,vor dem großen Tor
17. But now...
18. Domine Deus,exaudi nos et miserere
19. Take me someplace far away
20. It's just a look,but it makes the boys quiver
21. Oki wasureta asufaruto
22. I miss my mother,I miss being her son
23. From the top of the ocean to the bottom of the sky
24. Mojique sees his village from a nearby hill
25. Haven't seen you around in awhile
26. Soko ni aru kuruma no toranku ni wa
27. I remember thinking murder in the car
28. There's a gap in between,there's a gap where we meet
29. I'm in a rage,you better leave me alone
30. Your day breaks,your mind aches
31. I look at all the lonely people
33. Hikari wo motomete kage wa tawainai jouku wo shaberu
34. I fell in love but I needed a roadmap to find out where you lived
35. A ga maeba,kuwashime yoini keri
36. Things are feeling thin
37. You consider me the young apprentice
38. Aoku nemuru mizu no hoshi ni sotto
39. The afternoon has gently passed me by
40. Give me laugh
41. Young teacher,the subject of schoolgirl fantasy
42. Wake from your sleep,the drying of your tears,today we escape
43. We couldn't say them,so now we just pray them
44. Well,all the apostles are sitting in swings
45. I guess I am a scout,so I should find a way out
46. I'm frozen like a soldier
47. Women,listen to your mothers,don't just succumb to the wishes of your brothers
48. Heard of a van that's loaded with weapons,packed up and ready to go
49. Looking back and morning comes,don't find your face in your glass
50. If you are near to the dark,I will tell you about the sun
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"Who watches the watchmen?" [03 Dec 2009|09:59pm]
"Who watches the Watchmen?"

Well,not me,because that movie is hard as hell to find streaming on the internet. >_<

Look,Hollywood bitches,I payed twenty dollars for the source material. I think that MORE than entitles me to watch a film adaptation that I'm probably going to hate anyway for raping one of the few English-language comics I've ever given a shit about.

Also,I'm a Communist,which entitles me to watch/read EVERYTHING for goddamn free. Especially when the internet makes it so easy to steal.

EDIT: So I found it,and you know what? It's not a total mockery of the comic. Actually,in most places it's spot-on faithful. I do still have some gripes,naturally...

2. Twenty-something shots of Doctor Manhattan's blue glowing control rod (it's a nuclear energy joke...never mind) and only,like,two shots of Silk Spectre's breasts. Guess I'll just have to go watch Harold and Kumar again.
3. The guy they picked to play Adrian Veidt was both too young and WAY too small. If I remember correctly,the only man beefier than Veidt in the comic was the Comedian.
4. Too much emphasis and tone in Rorschach's voice,but I think that's just me. Most people I've talked to say the actor delivered the lines just the way they imagined Rorschach sounding.
5. Doctor Manhattan's voice was pretty much spot-on,though the white aura around his blue speech bubbles in the comic always made me think his voice had a slight echo.
6. Most of my other complaints are apparently fixed in the newly-released "Director's Cut" so I won't bother...

Really,though,I'm pleased. This is one of the only examples of a good translation of novel into film,though I still prefer the original. Only Kubrick can make movies better than the original novels. 2001 anybody?
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Nothing is cooler than giant robots. [22 Oct 2009|04:24pm]
I don't need friends anymore. I have this game:


Now my only needs in life are a few hours a day to play this and just enough beer to make me feel like I'm really there. It's like all my Gundam fantasies came true at last.

Also,go watch Zombieland.
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"Sasayaite kureyo soba ni iruyotte..." [07 Jun 2009|02:20pm]
I just realized a funny thing. The last book I read was entitled The Bell Jar. The one I'm currently reading is called The Jungle and the next one will be La Planète des singes (better known as Planet of the Apes).

So...I've been reading lots of books lately whose titles are places. ^_^ As if that's in some way significant.

EDIT: La Planète des singes took so long to come in the mail (I just received it today,06/16/09) that I started another book to hold me over. In keeping with the place theme,however,I'm reading Jurassic Park. And don't start talking shit,because that it actually a really intelligent novel,very meditative on man's usages of science,in a very Frankenstein sort of way. There's a lot more brain-food in the book than the movie (thought Chrichton frequently demonstrates that he knows next to NOTHING about dinosaurs),and particularly any time Ian Malcolm speaks,the book is brilliant.
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"We're all the punchline to a joke that they won't let us in on..." [31 May 2009|02:17pm]

This gave me a giggle. I think you've got your cause and effect screwed up,though,Dr. Kaufman.
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"Zutto issho datta no ni,mou. Dakara hayaku,hayaku kaete kite..." [09 Feb 2009|08:11pm]
If anybody wants to prove how much they love me...

Go torrent ZZ Gundam,burn it onto some CDs,and mail it to me. I'll even pay you for your time/blank CDs. I just don't have the HD space for it. ;-;
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"...on the arctic glass..." [06 Feb 2009|03:51am]
What we have here is the top 106 books most often marked as "unread" by LibraryThing's users. As in, they sit on the shelf to make you look smart or well-rounded. Bold the ones you've read, italicize the ones you read for school, underline the ones you started but didn't finish (or are on the shelf waiting for a free week).

Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell
Anna Karenina
Crime and Punishment
Catch-22 (Rereading this one now,actually.)
One Hundred Years of Solitude
Wuthering Heights
The Silmarillion
Life of Pi : a novel
The Name of the Rose
Don Quixote
Moby Dick
Madame Bovary
The Odyssey
Pride and Prejudice
Jane Eyre
The Tale of Two Cities
The Brothers Karamazov
Guns, Germs, and Steel
War and Peace
Vanity Fair
The Time Traveler's Wife
The Iliad
The Blind Assassin
The Kite Runner
Mrs. Dalloway
Great Expectations
American Gods
A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius
Atlas Shrugged
Reading Lolita in Tehran : a memoir in books
Memoirs of a Geisha (This book disappointed the hell out of me...)
Wicked : the life and times of the wicked witch of the West
The Canterbury Tales
The Historian : a novel
A Portrait of the Artist as a Young Man
Love in the Time of Cholera
Brave New World (My favorite of all anti-utopian literature.)
The Fountainhead
Foucault's Pendulum
Frankenstein (I did just buy it a couple days ago,though,so give me a chance...)
The Count of Monte Cristo
A Clockwork Orange
Anansi Boys
The Once and Future King
The Grapes of Wrath
The Poisonwood Bible : a novel
Angels & Demons
The Satanic Verses
Sense and Sensibility
The Picture of Dorian Gray
Mansfield Park
One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest
To the Lighthouse
Tess of the D'Urbervilles
Oliver Twist
Gulliver's Travels
Les Misérables
The Amazing Adventures of Kavalier and Clay
The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time
Dune (My favorite science fiction novel.)
The Prince
The Sound and the Fury
Angela's Ashes : a memoir
The God of Small Things
A People's History of the United States : 1492-present
A Confederacy of Dunces
A Short History of Nearly Everything
The Unbearable Lightness of Being
The Scarlet Letter (same excuse as with Frankenstein)
Eats, Shoots & Leaves
The Mists of Avalon
Oryx and Crake
Collapse : how societies choose to fail or succeed
Cloud Atlas
The Confusion
Lolita (Would you call me a pervert if I told you it was the truest,greatest love story I ever read?)
Northanger Abbey
The Catcher in the Rye
On the Road
The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Freakonomics : a rogue economist explores the hidden side of everything
Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance : an inquiry into values
The Aeneid
Watership Down
Gravity's Rainbow
The Hobbit
In Cold Blood : a true account of a multiple murder and its consequences

White Teeth
Treasure Island
David Copperfield
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Probably the longest piece of fiction I've ever completed. [27 Nov 2008|05:16pm]
Two Men at Tea

Chapter One - Introduction Is Such Sweet Sorrow

"As much as you made this place out to be," Leni complained, "I thought it would have been somewhere more appropriate,and not a little hollow nestled amongst the opium dens and guild houses. The streets are so dirty,I shall never be able to wear these shoes again."
"You could have hired a driver," Solomon suggested,beckoning his friend to sit down.
"No man would drive out here,or at least none I'd trust." Leni finished his tirade and sat down,lighting a cigarette.
"Well,I assure you the journey is well worthwhile," Solomon assured assuringly, "The tea here is to taste what Mozart is to hearing."
"There you go again,talking of Mozart as if his music was a divine revolutionary revelation. The man's music entangles itself on its own notes. The human ear cannot bear so many discordant screeches fighting for attention. It scrambles the thoughts."
"Leni,you are incorrigible," Solomon observed, "but even you will not be able to hate the tea served in this place."
"Even if you are right,it will be so only that I have an utter lack of hatred for it. The absence of hate is still hate. Yes,even love is an act of hate."

Chapter Two - An Even Trade

The waiter brought Leni's first cup of tea. It was a light darjeeling flavored with apple spice and roses. The cup was dark grey and shiny like hematite,with a silver band encircling the rim.
"It tastes like a flower garden," was Leni's only comment.
"This cafe serves the rarest and finest blends to be found in this province,so I understand if you take awhile to adapt." Solomon's own cup was red like a Chinese dragon with gilt and inlaid jade. The jade glittered in a bright green sunburst that exploded across the center of the cup.
"You're right in one thing," Leni said, "It is like Mozart: A myriad of unrelated flavors assaulting me. It is repulsive."
"The seemingly unrelated myriad of details all combine to form one larger,more complex harmony,and it is a masterpiece."
"You seem rather pleased by whatever it is you have there," Leni said snidely. Solomon sipped and smiled.
"But,Leni,at this stage it would be poison to you," Solomon warned.
"If I do not take that poison,I will surely be slain by the mediocrity held at bay within my own cup."
"Better that than to be put to eternity by a poison one has not yet learned to appreciate."

Chapter Three - The Man On the Zeppelin

"In any case,Leni,I am glad to see you back in fair Cialla.* How went your trip to America?"
"The passage was terrible. These zeppelin may be quite nice for overland trips,but they're dreadful things crossing the seas. Over the ocean in a zeppelin one is always fearing for one's life while hating his life at the same time." Leni finished his first cup of tea and lit another cigarette. The apple spice that had flavored it would soon begin to act as a mild stimulant on his brain. It was one of the many specialties of the Third Place Cafe Unknown,referred to by those who knew it as Sol Sul Noir.
"Zeppelins are delightful because they afford one the opportunity to meet so many different kinds of people," Solomon said,beaming beamingly.
"People are walking contradictions of themselves,and are entirely unpleasant. The only man I met on board the zeppelin spent the length of the voyage trying to beg me for an investment in his cable-laying company. Quite pathetic. I hated him completely."
"In that case," Solomon said, "you gave him much more than if you had just invested in his business venture." The waiter came with the second cup of tea.

*Autonomous region situated between Spain and France (Very nice)

Chapter Four - The Americans

The second cup of tea was much darker than the first had been,and was flavored with cinnamon and plum. It was served to Leni in the same hematite-colored cup,just as Solomon's renewed serving of tea was presented in the same jade green on dragon red.
"You went to America for an exhibition," Solomon said, "Was your work well-received,at least?"
"The Americans know nothing about art,and they adored my painting. What's worse,they coerced me into reading a few of my poems and were moved to tears by what I read."
"How is it so terrible to have your heart moved by prose? No harm in appreciating what's beautiful."
"Art is useful only if it isolates one from his emotions. Poetry that causes tears to flow is a complete failure,no good at all."
"The point of art is to stimulate the senses. The best of art stimulates all the senses in turn. That is why autumn is so beautiful."
"Autumn is beautiful because the death of anything is always beautiful. The complete cessation of awareness is the perfect expression of art."
"You resist too much when people love you," Solomon observed observantly.
"The only thing worse for an artist than an audience crying over his work is being paid for it. The Americans did both."

Chapter Five - A Martyr or a Heretic

"The socialists attempted another coup while you were off having your poetry wept over," Solomon reported.
"Socialism," Leni repeated, "Now there's art. It is beautiful and it insulates one totally from reality."
"I fought alongside them for about two weeks," Solomon revealed revealingly, "until the hopelessness of the situation again became undeniable."
"You,with a gun?" Leni was aghast.
"I hate the things,and I hate the necessity of them even more. But yes,me,with a gun."
"A gun is simple and perfect,and revolution is the carnival of the people. One is always hung over the morning after the carnival,yet still goes every time it is in town."
"Even when it is well-known what fate befalls any career revolutionary," Solomon concluded conclusively.
Leni nodded solemnly and lit another cigarette. This one was darker than the others,and smelled lightly of opium. The smoke Leni exhaled hung in dense clouds. The waiter came around with a tray of pastries Solomon had asked for. They were baked with honey and filled with blueberries.

Chapter Six - What Happened In Odal

"That explains one thing,at least," Leni began after staring heavily at his cigarette for a time, "I wondered,as I was coming home on the zeppelin,why Odal was in flames. Your work?"
"Odal,actually,went almost completely untouched by our uprising." Solomon took a sip of tea and looked sedately at Leni.
"But the entire city was in ashes,still glowing red and orange."
"And you'd like to know what happened?"
"I have the slightest itch of curiosity," Leni said,thick lines of smoke dropping from the lit end of his cigarette.
"Well,I don't know. But the papers have dreamed up an adequate explanation. They're quite good with your kind of art,sheltering people from reality. The story goes that a young Odalian man proposed to his three favorite ladies in one night,then ran out on all of them the next morning. Such a fuss was made that they burnt the town looking for him."
"I'd scarcely believe it,but the magnitude of human stupidity you just described lends the story credibility."
"And that is what I get in exchange for the coin I give the newsboy every day at noon."

Chapter Seven - The Practicality of the Japanese

"So what is your purpose,Solomon,in dragging a wretch like me out to have tea in the dingiest section of town?"
"There is no purpose," Solomon conceded concedingly, "and you are no wretch. The only truly wretched man I've ever known was years ago,when I was on long-term business in Japan. His mother curled up behind the house and died when he was a child. The family was poor,and his mother wanted to reduce the number of mouths to feed. He grew up blaming himself for her death."
"He grew up hating her for her practicality," Leni contested. The waiter came in with the third round of tea.
"He drank beer every day," Solomon said sadly as he reached for the vibrant red cup, "And he,too,resisted the love of others."

Chapter Eight - Love

The third cup of tea was a strong,vigorous rooibos heavy with milk and sugar. It was flavored,like the pastries,with blueberries.
"What is the love of others,then,for you to speak so reverently of it?" Leni demanded, "Just a demanding,urging need for someone,constantly realigning itself to prefer another."
"You've had lots of practice at it,I see," Solomon jeered jeeringly. He barely contained a laugh.

Chapter Nine - The Crystal Palace

Leni lit another cigarette. The vicinity surrounding his table was already choked with a miasma of his spent smoke. A hard,cold rain beat on the windows and pummeled the world outside.
"The magnitude of your idealism astounds me," Leni chided, "It separates you from reality as well as any masterpiece."
"I'm not so bad as that. Don't expect me to start living in the Crystal Palace just yet. But you,too,even with your cynical platitudes,are quite an extraordinary idealist. You are just too much of a perfectionist. You expect too much. You want your people to be as divine beings,yet you want your gods flawed and mortal like yourself."
"What's the use in dreaming up the Crystal Palace if no such place can ever be?"
Solomon set down his teacup and quit the table in frustrated frustration. He put his coat on as he hurried for the exit.

Chapter Ten - Checkmate

In his haste,the old man had left his teacup half full. Leni sipped it out of curiosity. The jasmine-flavored tea was bold but delicate,subtle but distinct,and carried also the taste of honey. It was the most beautiful sorrow he had ever tasted,and his eyes were rimmed with tears.
"There in no hope of anything in this world ever getting any better," he promised himself.
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"And I shout that you're all fake..." [19 Oct 2008|04:27pm]
Because I’m stupid and enjoy little things like this...

Make a comment on this with your name or something, and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. If do this you MUST post this on yours. You MUST. It is written.

Just be forewarned that A) I don't like jell-o (or wrestling) and B) I probably don't remember my first memory of you. (I love little non-sequiturs like that)
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The lyrics to what is probably my favorite song right now... [02 May 2008|05:09pm]
Radiohead - "All I Need"

I'm the next act waiting in the wings
I'm an animal
Trapped in your hot car
I am all the days that you choose to ignore

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

I am a moth
Who just wants to share your light
I'm just an insect
Trying to get out of the night

I only stick with you
Because there are no others

You are all I need
You are all I need
I'm in the middle of your picture
Lying in the reeds

It's all wrong
It's all right
It's all wrong
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I listened to Mozart all day,so I can't think of a lyric to quote for this title. (Sorry) [19 Feb 2008|11:34pm]
DUDE! DUDE! I found the best Engrish EVER! It's in Gundam X episode 19...Roybea Roy says,

"Naiisu konbineeshon,de ne?"

The complete lack of proficiency with which he attempts to say "nice combination" is baffling,yet hilarious.

And you should all go watch it. Here,I'll even throw you the link.


Sadly,not a lot of people accepted this Gundam series,even though it was very original and had engaging,well thought out characters. It got cancelled ten episodes early and tv asahi (the channel which had been home to Gundam since the series' inception in 1979) never aired another Gundam program. But I like it...

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"Wish away the nightmare. Wish away the nightmare..." [18 Feb 2008|05:38pm]
One of my favorite lines in all Sailormoon...

Haruka: Michiru,you're hurting me!
Michiru: Oh?
Haruka: I want you to touch me gently.
Michiru: Later,when we're alone.

From episode 181...
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<<こみあげる涙飲みもう開きたくないこの瞳>> [18 Jan 2008|04:38pm]




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助けて。。。 [12 Jan 2008|02:26pm]

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Waking Life - Theory and Action [22 Jul 2007|05:09am]

My favorite scene from one of the most amazing films I have ever watched.
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"Let's all have another orange julius..." [21 Jul 2007|03:49am]
Everything I Need to Know About Life I Learned from Anime

1. Even if your breasts are larger than your head,they will always remain perfectly upright without any kind of support.
2. Giant robots are so simple to operate that any teenage kid can hop inside and pilot one.
3. When in doubt,stick your hand behind your head and laugh sheepishly.
4. No matter how many of your internal organs have been replaced with high-efficiency mechanical substitutes,you still need to eat.
5. The fate of the planet is inextricably linked to Toyko Tower.
6. One girl in a miniskirt can thwart more evil than an entire brigade of battle-hardened soldiers.
7. Never approach a woman with a cigarette in her mouth. They always pack heat.
8. If you're important,you will die at least once.
9. Changing your gender and physical form are everyday things.
10. Men always have at least five women fighting for their affections,while women are always torn between just two guys.
11. Your father either hates you or designs weapons for the military. Or both.
12. All vampires are eye-poppingly sexy. And most can walk around in broad daylight without batting an eye.
13. A woman in a kimono always has some sort of proficiency in either spiritual power or swords.
13. Monsters are always either jet black or shock white.
14. Before killing your enemy,always make sure to make a long philosophical speech about your ideals. Do the same thing right before you die.
15. Nobody can kick ass like high school kids can.
16. Whenever you're at the high point of your life,brace for the big tear-jerking twist.
17. If her eyes are red,run.
18. It is entirely possible to carry a mallet several times larger than yourself in the pocket of your pants.
19. Japanese people routinely spout out nonsensical English phrases such as "let's dancing."
20. Furthermore,nobody in Japan has black hair,and their skin is much paler than photographs would lead us to believe.
21. Shotguns can stop a man dead in his tracks,even if there's a football field between him and you. Also,guns have unlimited ammunition.
22. The more beautiful a woman is,the more obnoxious her laugh.
23. One skilled warrior can defeat an entire legion of enemies without suffering a scratch.
24. Males fall into one of two categories: Either they're insanely perverted or mortally terrified of the female anatomy.
25. All women wear white cotton panties. No exceptions.

I may add to this later...anybody else have any ideas?

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"Everything that keeps me together is falling apart..." [07 Jun 2007|10:02pm]
"...cobwebs only form when dust collects on wayward pieces of silk produced by spiders or other insects."


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New CD. Yay. [02 May 2007|09:09pm]
Soundtrack for a Villain

1. Orange Range - Asterisk
2. Modest Mouse - Bukowski
3. The Raconteurs - Steady As She Goes
4. Modest Mouse - Dramamine
5. Gorillaz - O Green World
6. Soul Coughing - Circles
7. Kaiser Chiefs - Ruby
8. Modest Mouse - Dashboard
9. Shakkazombie - Shiroi Yami no Naka
10. Modest Mouse - Tundra/Desert
11. Modest Mouse - Polar Opposites
12. Katsuki Yukari - Moonlight
13. Nirvana - Where Did You Sleep Last Night? (Leadbelly cover)
14. Modest Mouse - Talking Shit About A Pretty Sunset
15. Dir en Grey - Erode
16. Modest Mouse - Trailer Trash
17. The Raconteurs - Call It A Day

The word I'd pick to describe this one is...atypical. Yeah. >_>
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"I'm in hell and the angels cry because I'm trying to sell my soul..." [10 Feb 2007|10:14am]
I saw Dir en Grey last week. Words cannot describe how totally fucking awesome that was for me.

Just...dude. Oh my god. Dude...

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